AN EVENING OUT

Just trying to get one ONE, just one nice decent picture and look at the results... baaaad.
Minutes away from going to the hairdresser's and changing my hair style yet again. Crazy. No arguments there. Feeling completely beaten up by ghosts. Almost finished up with this academic year, preparing stuff for Boston, doing ok at work... and yet worse and worse. I walk on the street and then I suddenly stop and don't realize until people begin staring at me. Not even then. Mmm. Eat lots of icecream. Listen to Tracy Chapman. Buy short dresses. Are there anywhere in the world hugging organizations? They would be succesful.

I FALL UPON THE THORNS OF LIFE! I BLEED!

What do normal people do when they are so angry they are just about to explode? What do they do? How do they stand this? How how how without causing themselves pain? I can't use pain, I promised not to do it anymore and I am going crazy with anger and rage and desperation because I don't know what to do with them, how to get rid of them. I hate this. I can't survive life, I just can't cope with all these emotions day after day. I hate it I hate I hate it. No one no one no one no one no one no one no one.